I joined the military almost four years ago. With that said I never in a million years would have guessed while being in the Air Force I would find the man of my dreams and have a baby!!! With a lot of bedrest and sleepless worried nights our son Kingston was born. Having a baby, well becoming mother changed me… but becoming a mother while still being in the military is a whole different animal. 6 months after giving birth came the PT test and 1 month trip away from my son. Being told I had to leave him for 4 weeks was the hardest pill to swallow. But of course orders are orders and there I went. Of course I had the benefit of leaving him with his dad but still… A mother always worries. Military families know the difficulties of leaving their children, and it’s very painful. You feel guilty, but you met Uncle Sam first and have to do your time. A month is nothing compared to other families, but I guess it’s something I thought I’d never had to go through. I suddenly found myself turning down missions for my family. Something I enjoyed so much before took a back seat. It’s so worth it! Spending time with my little one is amazing, especially now when he’s learning so much. This reminds me of my two week mission that I recently went on. Seriously, in those two week I missed my sons first steps!And I said never again! I have two more years left, and that’s it’s for me. Missing his first steps was for me the sign that unfortunately I was not going to reenlist.Life changes when you have a family!